Kelly Osbourneis reprioritizing her life heading into thenew year.
“2019 has been one hell of a year,” she began her caption. “In many ways it has been amazing especially in terms of self-growth. In many ways it has been gut-wrenchingly difficult. However through all the good and bad it has been incredibly educational for me.”
In her reflection, Osbourne — who celebratedtwo years of sobrietyearlier this year — said she has noticed that she puts other people’s livelihood ahead of her own, often at the expense of her own self-care.
“I have come to the realization that I constantly put the needs of others before my own,” she wrote. “I allow myself to be put in situations that make me feel uncomfortable for fear of upsetting someone else. Not forgetting the amount of times I co-sign the bulls— of others.”
This New Year’s resolution marks a breakthrough for the star, who wrote that 2020 is “going to be the year of me!!!”
“With almost 2½ years of sobriety under my belt I still struggle with confrontation (which was NEVER a problem when I was using) Well this all STOPS today,” said Osbourne. “… It’s time to put myself first, stop taking on other people’s s— and be the badass sober women I was born to be.”
“I woke up this morning feeling overwhelmed with gratitude. I can’t even put into words how much my life has changed over the last 2 years,” shecaptioneda screenshot of her Twelve Steps app. “To the friends and family that have supported me on this Journey thank you I love you all so much. If you are new to sobriety stick to it life really does get good.”
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“This past year has been one of the hardest years of my life and I feel it’s time [I] share that with you guys,” she said. “To cut a long story short things got really dark. I gave up on everything in my life but most of all I gave up on myself. Life on life’s terms became too much for me to handle. The only way I knew how to function was to self-medicate and go from project to project so I never had to focus on what was really going on with me. Something had to give… and it did.”
She added: “I have [spent] the past year truly working on my mind body and soul! I had to take a step out of the public eye away from work and give myself a chance to heal and figure out who the f— I really am without a camera in my face.”
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Osbournetold PEOPLE in a 2009 interviewthat she first encountered drugs at 13, when she gained access to liquid Vicodin after she had her tonsils removed.
She revealed she was finally able to get sober because she made the choice, following a six-year battle for sobriety that included four visits to rehab, six detoxes and one visit to amental institution.
“For me, it was either I was going to die, or I was going to get help,” Osbourne said at the time. “I decided that I wanted to live, that life is worth living and that I have an incredible family and friends and why am I allowing myself to be so miserable?”
If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, please contact theSAMHSA substance abuse helplineat 1-800-662-HELP.
source: people.com
