Luann de Lessepsknows sobriety can be a slippery slope.
The Countess opened up about her struggle with alcohol on Thursday night’sReal Housewives of New York Cityreunion, calling herself a “self-sabotager.”
“I’m a self-sabotager, it’s just who I am,” she said while discussing herbrief arrest and court appearancein May after she violated her probation stemming from her 2017 arrest. “I’ve learned a lot about myself. When I’m doing great, that’s when I’ve got to be extra careful.”
During her Palm Beach court appearance in May, de Lessepsadmitted to relapsing and failing an alcohol test, which prompted the judge to add additional terms to her probation.
While the cabaret star has said she’s committed to remaining sober through the end of her probationary period, she doesn’t outright consider herself an alcoholic.
“I don’t know really know,” she said. “I know that I was definitely self-medicating and I was on a highway to hell.”
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De Lesseps also addressed leavingthe treatment program she attended last yearearly, insisting she stayed for three weeks despite the other women’s claims that she left after two in order to perform in a cabaret show.
“Being on stage makes me extremely happy, and I love it,” de Lesseps said. “For me, it’s therapy. I wanted to be there. I didn’t want to cancel.”
But when de Lesseps claimed the rehab center supported her checking out early, the other women weren’t buying it.
“As an outsider looking in, I think you should have canceled,” Ramona Singer said. “You should have never left rehab.”
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“This is a false monologue,” addedBethenny Frankel.
“I’m going to give you tough love,” Singer said. “I believe you’re still drinking on the side.”
“No, I’m not,” de Lesseps replied.
The final part of theReal Housewives of New York Cityreunion airs next Thursday at 9 p.m. ET on Bravo.
source: people.com
